My personal motivation to you
Please, even if you didn't know Dave Crispell, take the time to read this in honor of him.
May 10, 2018, Dave Crispell went home to be with the Lord. For those of you who don't know, Dave Crispell was a special pastor to many. His preaching was probably something that started a true growth in my life at a young age. His life truly reflected Christ, and even as a twelve year old, I noticed it. When I was in fifth grade, I rededicated my life to the Lord, and Pastor Crispell baptized me soon after. From that point on, I always looked up to Dave.
Dave didn't stay at the church very long before God called him to serve elsewhere. Pastor Crispell's ministry was worldwide. What a true role model for missionaries! Just a few of the places I know that he served in are various churches in Pennsylvania, Alaska, the Bahamas, and Haiti (I know there is many more that I don't remember at the top of my head).
He use to message me on Facebook every so often to tell me he was reading my blog. For me, that was a huge encouragement that he was taking the time to read it.
I felt God pushing me to write while I was at Pastor Crispell's memorial service yesterday, so I took out a pen, peeled open a tithe envelope from the pew in front of me, and started writing on the white empty inside of the envelope. Here is a poem that God has blessed me with. It has been written in honor of Dave, but I'm sure it can be a true encouragement during any loss of a loved one. I hope you enjoy it.
Please share this with anyone you know that knew Dave Crispell.
"The Death Of A Believer"
-In honor of the life and death of Dave Crispell
In times of worry or devastation,
Remember Christ, your restoration.
Even when death seems to have won,
Remember Christ has overcome.
The end of life on this earth
Is the beginning of life with eternal worth.
In the grave one's body lays,
But the soul has risen. God be praised!
On earth you mourn and you may cry,
But in Heaven where God and angels abide
There is no crying. There is no tears.
There is only rejoicing, and joy filled cheers.
For God has brought another child home,
And it was all for His glory alone.
Though your loved one passed away,
Praise God that Jesus made a way.
You will miss the one you lost,
But praise God for His Son paying the cost.
The price of Christ on the cross
Saved the life of your loved one lost.
So take the time to thank God today
For the life of your loved one that He gave.
A life that's lived for Christ is blessed
With eternal life, nothing less.
The life of your loved one has now passed;
But your life on earth still lasts.
So let the life of one be a reminder to you:
Live up to the purpose God has for you too!
So, this blog post isn't on a huge topic of any sorts, but I thought I'd give you an update on me. :)
Recently the battle of temptation has been very overwhelming and holding me back from writing. It's hard to try to do what's right and encourage others when your own life is not in line. It's kinda like having someone who can't ride a bike try to teach you how. I feel like I try to give advice I can't even take from myself sometimes. BUT.... God is still good to me. His mercies are new every morning, and I know that He still loves me as His son, even when I mess up.
On a brighter note, I just finished editing the third chapter of my book. It's only five chapters long, so I'm very close to being done. I'm hoping to get it published soon after and release it on my blog if anyone is interested in buying. If you have any advice on easy, cheap ways to publish a book, please contact me through the subscribe tab above, or leave a comment below with your email, and I can get back to you. :D
My sister is an artist, so I plan on having her do a sketch of what I want the cover to look like. I'm very excited for the finished product! I keep praying that God will use His words in my writing to touch the hearts of others.
I have some big plans ahead of me in my life. I have been trying to save every dollar I can. I believe God is pushing me to move forward in the next chapter of my life. Maybe within the year I will be moving out. I am praying for His direction constantly; it's exciting to see little answers of prayer each week.
For this summer ahead I have three small personal goals I have set before myself:
1. I'd like to gain 20 pounds by the end of the summer.
I have never really gotten into working out or eating healthy, but my girlfriend's father and one of my close friends are both into it. I started working out a little bit with both of them, and seeing progress has got me too excited to quit. I haven't really gained any weight for like five years; I've always been that average sized kid. This year I'm hoping to put on some muscle.
2. I want to hold a copy of my book in my hand by the end of the summer.
I wrote this book in about thirty days. Because of procrastination and business of life, I have pushed off the editing of my draft. I am now so close that I have no excuse why I can't have it done.
3. I would like to get through a few Christian books by the end of the summer. I find it hard reading on my own sometimes, but I find it much easier to read with others. I'm hoping to read through a few books in my Bible study or with some friends this summer. Here are a few books I have that I have not read yet and would like to.
The Pursuit of Holiness
Close Enough to Hear God Breathe
The Imperfect Disciple (finished half of it)
The God of Yes (finished half of it)
Don't Waste Your Life
The Path to Holiness
Life Beyond Living
The Battle Plan for Prayer
Many of these books were given to me by friends or family. I've heard great things about a lot of them; I just have a rough time sitting down reading one of them. I'm hoping to finish at least three this summer. If you like any of these or know of any others, let me know what you have read and found encouraging. :)
That's about all I have to say for this post. I'm hoping to have a poem finished sometime this week or next. Thank you for taking the time to read this. It means a lot.
I know... I haven't written in awhile. My mind has been engaged on my work and my life. I guess that sounds kind of selfish. I'm sorry; I took my mind off the goal for a long time, but I have good news for you! Before I get to this news, let me give you a small update on my life.
If you did not know, I was writing a book. Yes, writing, as in past tense. I can now say I have written a book. My first book is finished; well, actually, it's still a rough draft and has to be proof read. The book is basically written, but over the review it may receive some slight changes in wording and maybe some additional sentences. I wrote it in about a months time! I'm actually surprised with how quick I wrote the book. It is not very long (between 70-110 pages), but it is exactly what I wanted. I cannot wait to share it with you. It is easily read and great for all ages to hopefully enjoy. I am hoping to have it published early on in the new year to come.
After finishing writing, I took a long break from writing anything at all. I started doing some online work and really enjoyed the job I got into. It's been a great first two months working, but it kind of got me side track from my passion of writing. I almost feel I need to apologize for my absence. Maybe you have kept up with my blog or maybe you have never read it before, but I have always had a passion of sharing the effectual love I have received from God that can change your life too. I have always had a passion of being a motivation to the people around me with my words; the last two months I have stepped away from that passion and filled that space with work. I guess to put it bluntly, I have failed myself and feel like I have failed you. More importantly, I have failed God.
God has put this ability and enthusiasm inside of me of writing and sharing uplifting news with you, and I have disregarded? Shame on me! But let me point something out to you: just because I have fallen in the pit of failure, it does NOT mean I can't get out.
This is where the good news for you comes in! You see, I have fallen into a lazy state. I have fallen off track with something I believe God wants me to do: share what He has taught me with you!!! But let me be an example to you in your life! Maybe you have fallen off track with something too. It can be anything! Maybe you strive to lose weight, buy something you have to save for, be better at basketball, or even grow closer to God.
-YOU WILL NEVER GET THE RESULTS YOU ARE LOOKING FOR WITHOUT PUTTING IN THE TIME-
You see, when you start something, you aren't finished until you get to the result. You don't quit in the middle. Maybe you slacked off at a time, but don't let that stop you from getting back up. Maybe there's a sin you keep falling into temptation with. Do you discourage yourself by saying, "Well, I fell into temptation last time so it doesn't matter if I do this time. I'm never gonna be able to stop anyways." STOP! That is a lazy way out. It's an excuse your flesh will try to use.
Mind over Body!
Whether it's a sin temptation or just any ordinary situation in life, don't let your failures stop you from reaching success.
-If you want to lose weight, put in the work.
-If you want to buy something out of your price range, put in the discipline to save your money.
-If you want to get better at basketball, keep your head up and start practicing.
-If you want to grow closer to God, put in the time for prayer and devotions.
If I want to be a better witness through my writing, I need to start writing again. I let my laziness get in the way and told myself it doesn't matter. I now realize that from my lack of motivation, I had fallen away from my writing; but if I don't start again now, how long would I keep pushing it off?
Listen, you are not alone. Everyone struggles with reaching goals in life. As a motivation, remember this verse:
Ephesians 2:10 "For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them."
As a Christian, God has created you for good works. God has prepared a way that you would walk for His glory. Let that motivate you to live up to that goal. It has motivated me tonight. I was quoting that verse and thought right away, "Man, I gotta get back into writing."
I hope if there are any goals you have missed or failing to reach, that you would get back on track and live up to the purpose of success. Don't let mistakes hold you down; instead, allow motivation to pick you up.
Any "Christian" can say, "Jesus died for me" or "God is love" or "I know I'm saved because I said the prayer", but do they really know who God is? Do they really know what salvation is or what they believe? I have been going back and forth with myself if I wanted to ever write this because I feel it may offend some, but I know God has laid this upon my heart for a reason. I want you to think about yourself as you read these words, and truly answer to yourself if this is you.
I am not here to attack anyone; I am not here to make you confused or afraid. I am not writing to make you doubt your beliefs or change your beliefs. I want you to read this and question yourself. I want you to really dive deep instead of just skimming the surface. I want this post to cause you to do your own research if these words cause you to think.
I hate seeing these "LAZY Christians". There life speaks words to me like this: "Oh, yeah, I'm a Christian. My mom told me to get to heaven I had to repeat after her and just really mean it. I said the prayer and I think I believed hard enough. Ever since, I have been doing all these good things for God."
You know these people. Maybe this is you. These people know the simple verses like Romans 3:23, John 3:16, and maybe Acts 16:31 if you're lucky. They talk about how much their life has changed since they've been trying to be a Christian, but if you look deep enough, these are the same kids that are at home watching porn when no one is around, cursing because they're "cool" when they're outside of the Christian circle, listening to that rap and hip-hop trash that fills your mind with filthiness, and just completely following their heart after lustful desires that the Bible completely speaks against doing.
I am not saying that Christians don't struggle, mess up, and do these same or similar sins daily, but I know the Bible says "you will know them by their fruits." If you don't see them even trying to put off the old and put on the new how can you believe that they have truly been changed at all?
The Bible CLEARLY states, “Put off the old, and put on the new.” If these small areas of their life aren’t matching up with the Bible, what’s the rest of their life look like? The Bible talks about confusion and diversions in the world. It talks about how Satan will have diversions in the world and lead people away from God. Could one of the diversions possibly be someone thinking they are saved?
Revelation 12:9 (KJV)
And the great dragon was cast out, that old serpent, called the Devil, and Satan, which deceiveth the whole world: he was cast out into the earth, and his angels were cast out with him.
2 Corinthians 4:4 (KJV)
In whom the god of this world hath blinded the minds of them which believe not, lest the light of the glorious gospel of Christ, who is the image of God, should shine unto them.
The Bible says many will think they are going to Heaven, but you want to know what they will say? It will probably be along the lines of, "Lord, I did all these good things. I said the salvation prayer, I prayed for my friends to get saved, I went to church on more than just Sundays, I went on that one mission's trip, I went to youth group, I stopped cursing for the most part, and I did all these other good things for you!" Jesus' words will be, "Depart from me ye that work iniquity; I never knew you."
Matthew 7:21-23 (KJV)
21 Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven.22 Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works?23 And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.
How sad will that be? That must be a shocker to them! Did you see the pattern though? The people that think they are saved will say, "I did this, I did that, I I I I....." Is it really about anything we did? Is salvation AT ALL about what you or I did? Is it about some prayer you said? You really believe that a prayer is the key to salvation when it's preached all the time, "It's not by works"? I hope it doesn’t make sense when the preacher says, "You can't do anything to save yourself so just say a prayer and Jesus will save you!"
Speakers like this are literally telling you to do a certain work (say a salvation prayer), and you will obtain the gift of salvation from Jesus. After that they tell you to change on the outside and show the world what a "Christian" looks like. Just live a certain way and say the right things; you will definitely be going to heaven if you just follow these simple steps. Step one: Say the prayer. Step two: Live the life. Step three: get others to say the prayer. I believe these are the three key steps to living the life of a "Lazy Christian."
Now let me tell you why I feel this way. Romans 6:6 says that Christians use to be slaves to sin. Do you know what that means? The unsaved is enslaved to sin, as in bound by sin. You were or are consumed by sin nature. If one is bound by sin nature, can they do anything that is good? NO!!! Of course not. The Bible says that their works are like filthy rags because it is impossible for someone to do good if they are enslaved to sin.
Isaiah 64:6 (KJV)
But we are all as an unclean thing, and all our righteousnesses are as filthy rags; and we all do fade as a leaf; and our iniquities, like the wind, have taken us away.
That's like telling a human to grow a tail or to fly with wings. It's impossible! Why? Because you are bound by human nature. Your human body cannot do that. It’s the same with an unsaved man enslaved to sin; they cannot do any good because good is the complete opposite of sin and outside of sin nature. So if this is true, is it really possible to admit you are sin and do something good like saying a prayer that you believe in God to get saved? I would disagree, but this is what many believe.
I wouldn’t doubt one’s salvation who believes this way, but I would doubt their understanding of their salvation. God can save somebody and they can still believe they said a prayer that saved them. But at the same time, one can say they got saved by a prayer they said and not be saved at all. Many believe this way, but I think it is a mix of Christians and unsaved.
Psalm says the fool rejects/disbelieves God. A fool is one who is unsaved. If they are rejecting God, why would they come to admitting they need God? They wouldn’t! So how can you get saved? I’m making it sound like mankind is pretty hopeless.... But that’s because mankind IS hopeless. Salvation is nothing any man can achieve on their own. It is only by the work of God one can be saved.
The fool hath said in his heart, There is no God. Corrupt are they, and have done abominable iniquity: there is none that doeth good. 2 God looked down from heaven upon the children of men, to see if there were any that did understand, that did seek God. 3 Every one of them is gone back: they are altogether become filthy; there is none that doeth good, no, not one.
You see, God draws one near and touches their life with His grace.This grace is what saves; this grace is what opens one's eyes so that they may see. Saving grace is what reveals the truth to one of their hopelessness. Without God’s drawing and touching one’s life with this grace, man cannot receive salvation.
No man can come to me, except the Father which hath sent me draw him: and I will raise him up at the last day.
Many will disagree with this because of the belief of God not wanting any to perish and giving man the freedom of choosing salvation. They might say that if God’s drawing was only for people He chose then He’s sending people to hell. First, God doesn’t send people to hell; sin does (Romans 6:23). Secondly, If you are bound by sin nature do you have the choice to do what is right? I don’t believe this is so. So can you really have a choice of doing what is right? Would that make salvation special at all if it was just thrown to whoever? I believe it is much more intimate if God says, “I have chose to save you!” I believe God has to shine light in the darkness to open up salvation to you.
Another part people disagree on is God’s drawing. Some believe there is no election and chosen people for God, but if you read Ephesians 1-2 it says otherwise. I believe on the opposite side of the spectrum; I believe if God doesn’t draw you in and open your eyes, you don’t receive salvation. Many will say that makes God unfair. Well is God a god based on fairness?
HA! NO! (not trying to mock anyone, but I hate the idea of a "fair" God)
If that was so, God would weigh our “goods” and bads on a scale and tell us if we made it to heaven or not. If God was truly fair, everyone would go to hell. NO ONE is righteous and even worthy in God’s presence. Is grace “fair”? The whole idea of salvation is not fair. It wasn’t out of fairness God gives salvation; it was out of His love and grace He chose to save some of His creation. If you don’t think that’s fair or right of God to do, read Romans 9 and then tell me if you have any business telling the Creator what He can and can’t do with His creation!
Man cannot confess of sin to be saved; one confesses their sin because God has saved. When God reveals full glory and grace to one, they will repent, but without God drawing and revealing, man cannot find good on their own.
You see, man would not be hopeless if you believed you have to seek God and say a salvation prayer when you believed. Man is only hopeless if they cannot save themselves, but only be saved if their life was touched by a stronger outside source (God) that could break the sin’s chains of slavery.
I hope I am not being confusing with all this, but if so my challenge to you would be to read your Bible and search it out! Don’t base your beliefs on man’s words; match up their words with the Bible. Don’t base your salvation off of what your pastor says or your parents taught you; look to God’s word! He promises to make Himself known to the ones who seek Him. He will draw one in, open their eyes, and cause them to realize the reality of their sin. They will cry out to Him because He has shown them.
I use to believe in what I call the Two-part Salvation. I believed God already did all the work by sending His son to die and promising life through his rising from the dead. I believed the free gift of salvation was just thrown out to everyone and whoever took it was smart. I always thought, “Why wouldn’t everyone take it? Even if you don’t want to follow Him, might as well take His gift of eternal life.” I believed that when I got saved it was through my belief and my words of confession. I believed God made a solution for my sin, and I acted upon it.
Ever since about six months ago I have been questioning my belief. I always knew I was saved because I could see change and feel conviction from the Holy Spirit in my life. I just had this problem with not knowing all the answers.
I will never know all the answers, but that shouldn’t stop me from diving deeper. From not diving deep enough I got myself into believing that my salvation was partly out of my working. Once I dove deeper and tried asking myself and other godly men in my life the harder questions I started seeing that my salvation was intimate. I could see my salvation had nothing to do with a prayer, but it had everything to do with God choosing me in His timing for His purpose. How much more special is that God wanted a relationship with me and I’m not just another lucky guy that chose to accept Him into my heart?
His gift of salvation is grace that is particular and much more meaningful than the grace He gives to everyone every day. That grace would include things like oxygen we breathe every day, a body that works, creative minds, and just the opportunity to live. Salvation’s grace is much more meaningful than the grace that God gives to the unsaved and saved every day.
I think I will stop rambling for now because this could go one hundred different directions if I keep typing. Let me end with this thought: I don’t want you to believe what I say because I say it’s true. It’s a lot to take in and questions will pop up in your head, but instead of getting defensive of what I am typing, look to God’s word and see what it says to you.
Don’t allow yourself to say, “I’m right and this guy’s wrong!” I wouldn’t be posting this if it wasn’t important to me or I didn’t believe it could open a whole new point of the Bible to you. Salvation is a topic I feel we dumb down so much when there is so much we might not understand about it. Did Jesus die for all sin or just Christians’ sin? Does God hate or only love? Was my salvation my choice? Can one reject salvation after Him showing grace and opening their eyes? Can I lose my salvation? Can I be saved and still do what I want?
I have already answered these questions and more for myself, but I’d like to challenge you to answer them personally. Get serious with God’s word; ask someone like your pastor or a Christian friend that may be more knowledgeable about questions like these. Ask them to show your where and what the Bible says. If you take anything out of this post, don’t let it be anger if your belief of what the Bible says about salvation is different than mine. My whole goal was to cause my readers to think and to tell you to not become a lazy Christian.
So don’t walk away from this post saying, “Hmmm, that was interesting.” I want you to get up, grab the Bible you haven’t touched in a few days/weeks/months/years, and get your phone. Do a simple Google search of some keywords or where to find verses. Read some passages you remember that talk about salvation if you want to study more (I would suggest Ephesians and Romans). Ask others questions. Do everything in your power to try to understand and know as much as you can about what God says about salvation.
Don’t be a lazy Christian; thirst after the word and desire to understand it more instead of taking an easy way out. Don’t make God the God you want Him to be in your mind; read the Bible and see what He has to say to you. (look at that! I said I’d stop rambling four paragraphs ago…)
I am sorry I have not posted in a long time; I have pushed it off for awhile now. Some of it was laziness, but most of it was because I do not want to write halfheartedly. Let me explain....
I work at a Christian camp called Spruce Lake located in the Poconos of Pennsylvania. I am a counselor for a program called Day Camp there. Day Camp is like day care and vacation Bible school smashed together that lasts eleven weeks in the summer. At Day Camp we average close to 100 campers a day, and anywhere between 8-15 of them are my responsibility every day. I am the counselor of the Rattler group, which is the 12-13 year old children.
These kids pretty much drain me Monday through Friday. My day consists of teaching devotions, feeding them lunch, running games and playing along, walking them to each activity, and anything in between. We do camp games, hike Spruce Mountain, go on field trips, swim, make crafts, and many other things that occupy time from 9-4 every day. Since it is a Christian camp, God is shown and talked about at every opportunity found.
Like I said, these kids drain me, but I love my job. I have such a burden for teaching these kids about who God is, what God has done, and what God is doing. I want them to know about Christ and be able to share the same relationship I have with Him. Some of the children come from a family that go to church or at least have heard about God, but many of them do not. Many parents use Day Camp as just a day care and opportunity for their child to do something with their summer instead of sitting in front of a TV.
I get home from work every day around five. I am then exhausted and ready to do nothing; I get the urge to write many times and want to when I get home. I just don't want to write with the attitude of trying to just get it over with, or quick putting something together without studying my Bible or feeling inspired. I don't want writing to become homework; I want my writing to be done out of pure love for God, knowing that through my writing, God can use it to touch the lives of others.
I guess I am kind of challenging other Christian writers with this: Don't write because you feel like you need to, but write because you want to and are moved by the Holy Spirit to motivate, discipline, encourage, or overall point others to Christ. Yeah, maybe some of my delay in writing was out of laziness, but there were many times that I thought, "I do not want to write if I am this tired and unprepared."
I know I could throw something together in twenty minutes that sounds good and says to love Jesus, but is that really the attitude I want to go into writing with? I mean, this is talent given by God that I can use for His glory! I don't want to do a sloppy, halfhearted job on the Lord's work; I want to take my time and do my best to glorify Him. If I just try to throw something together quickly, am I going to hear the words, "Well done, my good and faithful servant."?
This doesn't just go for writing. This goes for any occupation, hobby, or work done by us. If Christians are going into life with the attitude of, let's just get this over with, are they truly bringing praise to God? If you are going through life with this this kind of rushing or sloppy attitude, you're lacking the heart and motive.
What is your motive when you work? Is it, "How can I point someone towards Christ today?" or is it, "I can't wait till this day is over so I can do what I want!" The second one definitely sounds selfish, but it's how so many of us act so often.
To close, I would like to just try to encourage (as well as myself) to humble yourself and remember what you are working for. Pray and ask God to give you the opportunities to set an example of a follower of Christ to others. Be all in for the glory of Christ. Put your own desires and goals aside when you are doing God's work. Don't get sloppy or become lazy; become motivated!
It has been on my mind recently that I believe God is calling me into missions. I don't know where, how, when, with who, or even why; but I know that God wants me to tell others about what He has done for me and what He can do for others who are broken and lost like I once was. I have a heart for those who are slaves to sin; I know the cure and don't think as a Christian I should keep that to myself.
I have been on three mission trips outside of the United States in the past, and it each time this question would pop into my head: "What about America; where are the missions here?"
I have a burden on my heart for unsaved in America. I've heard teachers and preachers go on and on about how corrupt America has become and where America started. I hear them say how America is on a downfall. I find myself always asking this question in my head, "Okay, instead of talking about how awful our homeland is, what are we doing about it?"
I understand we as Christians need to talk about these things, but I don't understand why I don't see movement. Where is the action taking place? I've started to learn the truth to this in my life: if I don't see a change and I want one, I should make it myself. That's what I feel God is calling me to do! I want to be that change.
13 For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.
14 How then shall they call on him in whom they have not believed? and how shall they believe in him of whom they have not heard? and how shall they hear without a preacher?
15 And how shall they preach, except they be sent? as it is written, How beautiful are the feet of them that preach the gospel of peace, and bring glad tidings of good things!
I feel compassion on America because it is true that it is falling. It is becoming darker and darker. There is no one man in the nation to blame; the only blame is that we live in a sin-cursed world. Our culture is becoming so polluted at every moment of the day. You can't even check out of a store without seeing a magazine that causes immortal thoughts or seeing candy and becoming a glutton. You can't flip through five channels without coveting what celebrities have or how they live. You can't watch a movie today that doesn't try to justify that murder and violence is "okay" or that because this scene is quick it's "okay" for teens to watch.
1 Peter 5:8(KJV)
8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:
What has our world come to? How far are we going to allow America to corrupt our minds? I find myself justifying things saying why they are "okay." I soon after realize how stupid I was to think that something is not ungodly and contradictory to the Bible. I can see the spiritual war becoming more of a reality in my life as I open my eyes. The issue is that I see a need for revival but no one filling the need.
I am not writing this to judge or point a finger at anyone; I am just trying to make a point. My point is this: have you ever been in denial of God's will? It doesn't have to be missions at all; that's just personally where I have been convicted. For so long I have pushed the thought of missions out of my mind. I worry and deny how it could happen. I ask, "God, how can this work? How can I do this? Are you sure?" Is that you too?
27 And Jesus looking upon them saith, With men it is impossible, but not with God: for with God all things are possible.
Maybe this is you. You deny God's purpose and plan that He has for you. You feel convicted or a burden and see a need, but you push the thought aside because you are afraid. Why? Why are we so afraid of the future? What is the true fear? Do I fear missions because I don't think God can do it? Do I deny missions because I want to live a "normal American's life?" Do I fear leaving my comfort zone?
Are we underestimating the power of our God?!
I mean think about it. It can be large or small, but we all deny God's purpose or plan in our lives in one way, shape, or form at some point of life. Maybe you do it daily. Maybe you denied it years ago. Maybe you feel the conviction, but you are too afraid to move.
Maybe you deny God's reasoning. You know something is sin, but you still do it because "God takes all the fun away." I've been there, done that, and am embarrassed to know that as a Christian I can still fool myself. I write and tell others at my Bible study how wrong and stupid sin is, yet am turning around, becoming a hypocrite, and doing it myself. I can't even accept my own advice sometimes. Anyone else, or am I alone on this one too?
Do you realize how ignorant we Christians can be? (Remember I am not trying to point fingers. This includes me.) We say we trust in an all-powerful God, yet we still doubt Him and try to do things our own way. I mean how stupid can I be? If I know God is calling me to do something, whether it is in my idea of life or not, I need to be willing to go with all confidence in God, trusting He will direct my way. I need to have a positive attitude and be thankful He is putting direction in my life. We take His prodding of conviction in our lives so for granted; without Him being a guide where would I be?
5 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
7 Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the Lord, and depart from evil.
This whole post sounds a lot like a pity party on doubt, or as if I were trying to say ALL Christians do this. I am not trying to come off in a way that makes you feel worse about your position in life, but don't be convicted and not move like I have in my past and still struggle with today! My pastor, Bill Schneider, says, "If you read the Bible and you don't feel like you've wrestled with God, you're reading it wrong. Read it again!"
The truth to this quote is that we are not perfect; so a book that describes our imperfections should not always leave us with butterflies in our belly (not saying that's a bad feeling sometimes). Instead, we should be coming out black and blue. Let the word of God make you feel broken and realize how much you need to change, how much you need to turn around, and how much you need Christ.
I will close with this thought: is there any area in your life that you are denying God's will? Do you have denial in His guidance. I would not use the the cliche "Just let go and let God," but, instead, pray and move. Pray for His guidance and start doing something. You can't expect God to use or direct you unless you get up. Don't sit back and wait on God; get up and ask God to lead. Push your denial and worry to the wayside, and replace it with confidence in His direction.
This post is more about me personally and what I learned this past week on my senior trip then a motivational post, but I will still include some encouragement. (By the way, this is my class and I'm the one with the bag on my face.)
The past week I had two guest bloggers on my blog because I went away on my senior trip. It was exciting when it was finally here mostly because it means the end of my high school career is just around the corner. I have gone to a Christian school all my life, and I am very thankful for the influence it has had upon me. Yes, it has had its ups and downs (there are A LOT of rules that I think are dumb, but that's okay because I still love my school), but I thank God for the provision of money for my parents to send me to a school that is founded on His truth.
Going to a Christian school means a Christian senior trip. At first I wasn't so thrilled about this idea, but it ended up being one of the best trips I have ever gone on. It started off with a sleepy twelve hour car ride to Ohio. I only have ten classmates (I know, small senior class), and we divided up between two vans. My van was either sleeping or laughing the whole time. This trip really unified us; I found things out about my friends I never knew. Relationships really grew. I will forever be thankful for the friendships that were brought to life on this adventure.
I think most of my class would agree that the Beast is a fantastic roller coaster! I think it is the longest wooden coaster in the United States. There are no loops, but this thing was fast, took many wild turns, and was very rickety. There are parts that you just feel as if the carts will fly right off the track... -but hey! The sketchier the better.
Sunday we went to a church by the name Williamstown Baptist Church. The speaker, Pastor Leap, preached on assurance of salvation and if one is truly saved. I love messages like this. I cannot stress it enough when salvation comes up in a conversation that salvation is not a checklist, magic words, or dos and don'ts. Salvation is the giving away of your life because He did the same for us. It's repenting and believing. It's dying to sin and being raised to life in Christ. I just love salvation messages. Even though I am saved, it's always encouraging and fills my heart with joy with how much He has done for us.
The last floor was my favorite because it pointed everything to Christ. The different pictures and texts on the walls talked about how an all loving God could send a worldwide flood and it all pointed to Christ. The ark was so interesting and made me realize how uncomprehendingly big God is. It was a great experience and super fun; I would recommend the Ark Encounter to anyone and everyone.
To wrap up the trip, my class and I went to the Wilds Christian Camp. I don't have any pictures of the Wilds because phones are taken away for this part of the trip (I know it sounds rough, but it wasn't that bad). We stayed for four nights at the camp where other Christians schools also attended that week. There were (I think) 26 schools total that attended senior week and about 240 seniors. This part of the trip was an adventure alone. We went rafting, played games like life-size Foosball, went on a zip line that was over a ravine-like river, hiked down a mountain to see a 120 foot waterfall (the hike back was the hard part), went on a 65 foot swing, made new friends with other students, and the list goes on of exciting thrills the Wilds had to offer. I can't begin to explain how amazing this trip truly was!
At the beginning of some days and end of every day, we got together in the "Moose Room" and listened to preaching of God's word. Matt Herbster was the one who usually spoke; his messages were very impacting.
They were all good, but one message was really impacting in my own life. The message was based on Romans 12:1-2 and Psalm 16:11. Matt Herbster spoke about being fully committed to God and not holding anything back. I've heard messages like this before, but Matt made it very real to me. The message really came alive and convicted my heart in upcoming decisions I will be making like college, marriage, and moving out. I feel like I have recently been making those decisions on my own; I have been praying for God to allow me to do things my way instead of praying for His will and guidance. I didn't even ask God what He wants me to do.
This first brought fear into my mind; I wondered what my future holds. Am I truly willing to do ANYTHING for God? What if God calls me into missions or to not get married? Am I willing? What if God calls me to live somewhere I don't want to, or He provides me with a job I don't like? Am I willing?
Questions and worries filled my head. I felt like I was driving a car in complete fog. I wish God would make my future at least a little clear. I realized through all these thoughts and worries that I was starting to lose faith. Yes, I am still afraid of what the future holds, but I know my God is in control. I should not lose my faith in Him. He's been with me before; He will be with me now.
The other thing that stuck out to me was when he spoke about being ready for God to answer. I may be all in for God, but without my daily devotions and keeping my relationship with God as my priority, I cannot expect Him to lead. I have to let Him speak to hear what He wants to tell me. He is my guide and I need to be willing and ready to listen if I truly want to live for Him.
Overall, this trip was probably one of the best trips of my entire life. I hope that the spiritual influence that God brought into my life serves as a reminder as I finish high-school and move on in life. I don't know what is in my future yet, but I know God has a plan.
Hi, I am Michael Jaymes. I am 19, and decided to start to writing in the winter of 2017. I feel a burden on my heart that I have much to say, so why not share it? I want to be heard and I want to touch the lives of others. What is a better way than through the internet? I have made my life motto, "I just want to be a blessing." It's time for me to live it out.