My personal motivation to you
It has been on my mind recently that I believe God is calling me into missions. I don't know where, how, when, with who, or even why; but I know that God wants me to tell others about what He has done for me and what He can do for others who are broken and lost like I once was. I have a heart for those who are slaves to sin; I know the cure and don't think as a Christian I should keep that to myself.
I have been on three mission trips outside of the United States in the past, and it each time this question would pop into my head: "What about America; where are the missions here?"
I have a burden on my heart for unsaved in America. I've heard teachers and preachers go on and on about how corrupt America has become and where America started. I hear them say how America is on a downfall. I find myself always asking this question in my head, "Okay, instead of talking about how awful our homeland is, what are we doing about it?"
I understand we as Christians need to talk about these things, but I don't understand why I don't see movement. Where is the action taking place? I've started to learn the truth to this in my life: if I don't see a change and I want one, I should make it myself. That's what I feel God is calling me to do! I want to be that change.
13 For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.
14 How then shall they call on him in whom they have not believed? and how shall they believe in him of whom they have not heard? and how shall they hear without a preacher?
15 And how shall they preach, except they be sent? as it is written, How beautiful are the feet of them that preach the gospel of peace, and bring glad tidings of good things!
I feel compassion on America because it is true that it is falling. It is becoming darker and darker. There is no one man in the nation to blame; the only blame is that we live in a sin-cursed world. Our culture is becoming so polluted at every moment of the day. You can't even check out of a store without seeing a magazine that causes immortal thoughts or seeing candy and becoming a glutton. You can't flip through five channels without coveting what celebrities have or how they live. You can't watch a movie today that doesn't try to justify that murder and violence is "okay" or that because this scene is quick it's "okay" for teens to watch.
1 Peter 5:8(KJV)
8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:
What has our world come to? How far are we going to allow America to corrupt our minds? I find myself justifying things saying why they are "okay." I soon after realize how stupid I was to think that something is not ungodly and contradictory to the Bible. I can see the spiritual war becoming more of a reality in my life as I open my eyes. The issue is that I see a need for revival but no one filling the need.
I am not writing this to judge or point a finger at anyone; I am just trying to make a point. My point is this: have you ever been in denial of God's will? It doesn't have to be missions at all; that's just personally where I have been convicted. For so long I have pushed the thought of missions out of my mind. I worry and deny how it could happen. I ask, "God, how can this work? How can I do this? Are you sure?" Is that you too?
27 And Jesus looking upon them saith, With men it is impossible, but not with God: for with God all things are possible.
Maybe this is you. You deny God's purpose and plan that He has for you. You feel convicted or a burden and see a need, but you push the thought aside because you are afraid. Why? Why are we so afraid of the future? What is the true fear? Do I fear missions because I don't think God can do it? Do I deny missions because I want to live a "normal American's life?" Do I fear leaving my comfort zone?
Are we underestimating the power of our God?!
I mean think about it. It can be large or small, but we all deny God's purpose or plan in our lives in one way, shape, or form at some point of life. Maybe you do it daily. Maybe you denied it years ago. Maybe you feel the conviction, but you are too afraid to move.
Maybe you deny God's reasoning. You know something is sin, but you still do it because "God takes all the fun away." I've been there, done that, and am embarrassed to know that as a Christian I can still fool myself. I write and tell others at my Bible study how wrong and stupid sin is, yet am turning around, becoming a hypocrite, and doing it myself. I can't even accept my own advice sometimes. Anyone else, or am I alone on this one too?
Do you realize how ignorant we Christians can be? (Remember I am not trying to point fingers. This includes me.) We say we trust in an all-powerful God, yet we still doubt Him and try to do things our own way. I mean how stupid can I be? If I know God is calling me to do something, whether it is in my idea of life or not, I need to be willing to go with all confidence in God, trusting He will direct my way. I need to have a positive attitude and be thankful He is putting direction in my life. We take His prodding of conviction in our lives so for granted; without Him being a guide where would I be?
5 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
7 Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the Lord, and depart from evil.
This whole post sounds a lot like a pity party on doubt, or as if I were trying to say ALL Christians do this. I am not trying to come off in a way that makes you feel worse about your position in life, but don't be convicted and not move like I have in my past and still struggle with today! My pastor, Bill Schneider, says, "If you read the Bible and you don't feel like you've wrestled with God, you're reading it wrong. Read it again!"
The truth to this quote is that we are not perfect; so a book that describes our imperfections should not always leave us with butterflies in our belly (not saying that's a bad feeling sometimes). Instead, we should be coming out black and blue. Let the word of God make you feel broken and realize how much you need to change, how much you need to turn around, and how much you need Christ.
I will close with this thought: is there any area in your life that you are denying God's will? Do you have denial in His guidance. I would not use the the cliche "Just let go and let God," but, instead, pray and move. Pray for His guidance and start doing something. You can't expect God to use or direct you unless you get up. Don't sit back and wait on God; get up and ask God to lead. Push your denial and worry to the wayside, and replace it with confidence in His direction.
Hi, I am Michael Jaymes. I am only 18, but I've decided to start to write. I feel a burden on my heart that I have much to say, so why not share it? I want to be heard and I want to touch the lives of others. What is a better way than through the internet? I have made my life motto, "I just want to be a blessing." It's time for me to live it out.